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NaMe: Ryan Q.S.K
iGn: RyanQuek
NiCkS: LuCiRe, Kai, QuEk n eTc..
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D.O.B: 12 DeCeMbEr 1988
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E~Mail:ryan1988@hotmail.com
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Er... i really dunno wad am i doing or thinking anymore... i tink of you all the time... but wads the use? its all too late... its all over...
why am i still crying...
why am i still feeling so much pain?
why do i hope to tok to you?
why do i still wish to see you?
why do i wan to hold on?
why do i keep recalling the things we used to do?
so i just wanna sae is i miss you, and i still love you
our life had changed since we left each other's life
but my love seems to stop at that moment b4 it ended
i onli wish to let you know..
you can nv b replaced in my heart..
my heart will halt wif time in our most sweetest moments
things can nv be the same again.. and nv will..
but the way i treat you will nv change..
nothing else is left to embrace..
but i still hope i could juz hold you juz one last time..
b4 i realli leave...
i love you...
baby........... <3
2:02 PM
i been rotting at home after sch to chiong maple from tuesday to thurs morning!!!!!!!! jie bought me 2 of the 24hr 2x exp >.< so good lo. muahah... anyway still need to chiong like siao... wednesday or i shld sae thurday 5 am den slp.. 6.30 am wake up le... zzzzz totally dead in sch lo.. tmd... fcuk!!!!!!!! my class.. all also dead.. slack like fcuk.. ppt no one more than 10 slides.. coz everyone didnt feel like doing work.. anyway.. i finally got my dragon knight advancement in the morning b4 i went to sch...lol.. sigh.. today in sch also bored... everyone need to do individual work to dae and also team presentation. After we done individual work, we all lazy to do the team de lo.. bloody tired now.. can doze off even when smoking.. the cigaratte drop off from my mouth i still dunno lo... see how tired i was... T.T anyway... finally weekend!!!!!! muahahaha!!!!!
1:50 PM
FROM THURSDAY 22nd of june, i rotted at home till TODAY, i finally going to sch.. lol..
I am so sick lo.. i couldnt sleep, coz when i wan to go to slp, my cough will start to come again.. and the cough is so serious tat i cant slp at all!!!! tat was why i ended up not going to sch for thur and fri.. zzzz... first week of sch.. like tat liao... sianx... den sat i went for family gathering, went maple wif my young cousins again.. babysitting~ zzz.. but i had fun wif them..
On SUNDAY, i finally got to meet my jie!!!! she is working in yamaha music school at sun plaza... lol.. so coindent lo.. anyway, met up wif her during her break.. i overslept again >.< zzzzz
met her to get the soup she make for me !!! lol... anyway.. taste weird.. lucki i didnt finish coz the family drink liao, all diarrhea.. lol.. jie muz read recipe dun anyhow throw everything in!!!!
after tat.. had lunch together.. den went home liao... mapled my whole life.... muz chiong... i am behind schedule by a week!!! tmd... chopchop!!!! muz jiayou!!! 2 more lvls!!!!!!!! lol..
2:56 PM
why am i still tinking of things about u... why am i still bothered over it when it is all over... there is still part of me tat still cant let go.. why is it so? todae sch new term begins.. couldnt sleep last nite, dunno why.. thoughts of the moment we spent together juz keep flooding my mind... i come to realise that... u are more than him.. ervin... sigh... why tink anymore.. juz let it go... struggling to let go... why i did not speak my heart out? everyone knows... not juz us.. tat no matter how much bad things we say about each other.. we still care.. i know tat u do love me.. and i know u do too.. but wad the heck.. let it go ba... we will be happier without each other... =) ty for everything... i will onli treasure the happy moments we haf.. all are nothing but memories now..
omg.. i'm like doing so much work todae.. first day of sch, onli had 1hr of sleep and i can still do so much tasks... cant blive i am doing it lo... sianx...
9:15 AM
I've been tagged!
INSTRUCTIONS:1. Do the following WITHOUT complaint.
2. Choose 5 person to do this after you completed yours.
3. Leave a tag on the person's tagboard to say he/she have been tagged.
4. Start your post with "I have been tagged!" then do this.
Favourites
Favourite Colour: Red
Favourite Food: Eggs and Hokkien mee?
Favourite Song: Duan Dian by Hins
Favourite Movie: Too many.. er.. She's the man?
Favourite Sport: hmm.. Captain's ball!!
Favourite Day of the Week: Wednesday
Favourite Season: Winter Season, Hidernation~~
Favourite Ice Cream: Strawberries!! yum yum..
Currents
Current Mood: Empty.
Current Taste: Sour.
Current Clothes: Viva la republica Tee, and shorts.
Current Desktop: u mean the desktop brand? toshiba den.. lol
Current Toe nail Colour: er.. skin color? coz i dun paint toes!!!
Current Time: 4.49AM
Current Surroundings: Alone moving from room to room.
Current Annoyances: Todae no annoyances, coz everyone is gone
Firsts
First Best Friend: er.. wads his name again..
First Crush: Er.. was it a him or was it a her? hmm..
First Movie: i tink was power ranger!!! go go power ranger!!!!
Lasts
Last Cigarette: 10 hrs ago.
Last Drink: Ice lemon tea
Last Car Ride: Car? cab counted???
Last Crush: now? am i having a crush on him or wad?
Last Movie: Cars~ carcha >.0
Last Phone Call: TQY....
Last CD played: Cd ar... tmd.. i tink it was 1 yr ago.. since i last played one... anyway its boA.
Have you ever
Have you ever dated one of your best friend: tinking?? b4 coming best fren counted???
Have you ever broken the law: obviously??! like who doesnt?
Have you ever been arrested: er.. counted arrest for wrong accuse.. in republic polytechnic!!!!
Have you ever been on TV: er... i tink i was on the news about youngster studying veri hard in libraries tis days =) lolx.. jk la..
Have you ever kissed someone you dont know: yea... several times.. cheap? yea i am..
Things
5 things you are wearing: shorts, top, ear sticks er.. omg.. tat's all i am weaing =x
4 things you done today: Blogged, Mapling, surfing net and msn chats.
3 things you can hear right now: Trucks passing thru my window, the fan beside me and a ger screaming for help.. lol.. jk la..
1 thing you do when you are bored: er.. maple? or slp lo
People i tagged
Ruth
Shikin
Alvin
Alan
forgot last one liao.. nvm den..
4:43 AM
anyway, er... for 2 days b4 ytd, i was at home rotting whole day wif no food >.< den xue was so nice to da pao my mcspicy wif twister fries, curry sauce and mayo!!! yumyum!! she came wif her sis.. eat and rot at the same time.. den when it was late, they went home by cab. for the day b4 ytd, she came over by cab to sun plaza to haf supper wif me and we watched soccer. so sweet of her pls.. but ytd.. i juz rotted the whole day on my own at home.. zzz.. so poor thing.. my headache is realli killing me... shit!!!
today, went out to xue to j8.. suppose to reach at 3pm for her interview.. lucki i was late, she went ahead first.. when i reached, she was still waiting... and we waited till like 4.45pm? like wtf is wrong wif the boss.. i know she is fat.. but tat doesnt allow her to take her old nanny sweet time.. -.- wanted to watch garfield2 but den abit boring lea.. so we ended up eating den walk to amk lo.. walk and walk, dropped by at bishan park to meet qing yang.. zzz.. first time see him.. wasnt wad i expected him to look like.. lol.. anyway.. sweet guy =) gave him cigarrette to smoke.. =x omg.. a sin committed... sigh.. nvm.. shall repay by not smoking for one day.. lol.. take it from those day i didnt smoke ba.. lol.. anyway.. oh ya!!! b4 left j8, we took the 'got fan and platform neo print machine' XD so fun.. been ages since i recalled the last time.. will get the pic posted asap.. anyway.. went to arcade... played ddr, and failed twice so we gave up.. played para^2, 3rd round failed.. wad is wrong wif us?!! zzzz losing our touch liao.. sianx.. need to keep up!! >.<
after tat, i felt sick, ran out to the exit stairs and vomitted.. sianx.. after the ddr, my headache was at its worst.. so pain until i vomit lo.. after tat.. went down to S-11 to sit and wait for ying to come.. she haf her fried rice.. and they drank, i didnt.. coz i'm sick... T.T not long after.. we went off.. at mrt station, we relive our childhood... lol.. we played tag... hahha... like kids running and lamest was ying and me pretended to b titanic.. she stretched her hands up, i hug her and started saying the ship is sinking.. lol.. den she totally went dizzy.. den we jump to the ocean scene.. i held her hand saying "dun leave me, dun leave pls.." den after awhile i let go.. den she say "why let go when u sae dun leave me?! " den i replied "i meant, dun LIVE pls... " lol.. tat's why i force her head down into the water wif my feet.. (imagining) so lame!!! hahaha... anyway... tat's about all for the day.. going to bathe den sleep le..
bon voyage to two ppl here... my sis and qing yang.. one going to bangkok and one going to jb.. both coming back on sunday~ T.T will miss u two.. take care.. and godspeed =)
3:36 AM
people tend to see all the bad things tat is written and not the good things.. why issit so? does humans really like to hold grudges? it is the same as happiness is short after, whereas pain is here to stay... anyway..
for the whole day, i have been toking on the fone wif raymond, sean, qing yang, qi cai, chan mun, xue... cried practically for all the calls.. was like wow... total tok time spent: 5hrs ++ been awhile since i tok so much.. sigh..
i am sorry to everyone... i neglected so mani ppl tat truly cares for me.. sigh.. i know u all keep asking me to give up, but i keep holding on... i know i realli let u all down.. call me stupid, silly, foolish.. tat's me..
i wan to b a better fren to u budds.. and be a better son in my family.. am going to slp.. start my new day wif a brand new me.. i hope..
wads done is done.. wads over is over.. thee shalt nv cry over voi
5:01 AM
If i bother to put tat post on my blog to show my anger and stuff.. At least it shows i still care, and the way things are going is affecting me. It is better than people who juz cant even be bothered to speak out at all.. coz it juz shows how much the person cant b bothered.
And if u all are smart enuff, u all should know, the whole speech was writen when i was at a veri bad state so anything tat comes out of it... can be hurtful.. I wont apologize to any of u out there bcoz i haf done nothing wrong, and its my blog, i haf all rights to sae wadever i wan... nobody ask u people to come and make comments on wad i got to sae here.. if wadever i say here is affecting u, i suggest u stop viewing and get out of my life..
Plus, everyone tat are unhappy wif wad i say here, clearly are not my frenz coz u people juz dunno me at all... i am someone who say things tat are exaggerating and hurtful even to my bestest frenz when i am pissed or angry... but they know, tat's me.. and they are used to it.. since they know wadever i say, is juz venting my anger onli... but sometime they still take it to heart.. i know i am realli abit harsh... but den again.. i will not stop being who i am.. juz hope time will make those scar close up.. or heal at least abit.. wadever it is... i dun really care wadever losers out there think..
No intention of any offence here.. so yup... cheers =))
5:08 PM
tmd, ytd nite went out at nite to meet up wif xue,ying,bei and don. we went to DXO, and waited outside for bei's company to come... den after tat... we try to smuggle in.. but guess wad? i was the one tat kanna rejected... den xue was worse, coz she use pame ic, den she dunno the address and stuff... den got into trouble.. so ended up, xue, ying and me decided to go picture house for a movie instead of loitering there.. bei they all went in instead.. T.T sad...
We went to watch a 2.30am show.. CARS.. comments on it? er... bad.. real bad... it was veri draggy~~ and i mean DDDRRAAAAGGGGGyyyyyyyy... but part of the scenes were funny...
den again.. i wasnt paying much attention to the show either.. den i also distracted ying and xue.. coz why? i cried in the threatre... not coz the show was touching la!!! pls.. lol.. anyway.. ya..
we took cab to 848... to eat breakfast.. den went home le.. didnt slp.. was chatting on the fone and stuff... and ya.. went to slp at 9 am.. and was bloody woken up by an asshole name TAN QING YANG... asked me for a favour in helping him wif his blog.. den i was kind enuff to wake up to help him, den guess wad? he kpkb... keep rushing me and bossing me around lo.. tmd... juz spoil the whole mood... sigh.. back to maple den
4:53 PM
todae went to cut hair wif mich.. haf lunch b4 tat coz the salon got alot of ppl.. so they recommended us to go haf our meal first den comE back.. anyway.. after tat.. i rotted for an hour in the salon b4 deciding wad style to cut.. den finally its done.. when past my sch.. to show mich how my sec sch looks like... den walk and walk towards north point.. but stop it tis mama shop.. and put her to a test again!! to buy cigaratte!!! lol.. and to my surprise.. tis time she was able to throw tantrum and succeeded. actualli was also bcoz her bday is tmr... so.. the owner of the shop closes one eye.. lol... anyway.. went to gv, to look for movie to watch but den.. all the show we wanna watch are too late for us... so we ended up in arcade, played those lame games lo.. but was fun=) anyway.. after tat, we went home le..
actualli was suppose to go cut hair wif kn, but den somebody went to sleep, and did not answer my call!!! when she claims tat she will maple until morning so tat she could wake me up.. zzz.. den when i msged her in the afternoon to ask where she is, she still dare to tell me in town!!!!! nnh~ no even a sign of apologise.. wadever.. anyway.. she said tat she tok to me in maple, and i didnt reply, so she tot i was angry.. she 'TOT' i was angry.. did she even bother to explain to me again, by calling me or wad?! does it even go thru her mind tat i may b afking? zzz.. wadever it is.. i juz angry.. not holding grudges, so dun worry kn.. juz wanna vent my anger out on my blog ^^
anyway...
Tan qing yang!!! dun ignore me >.<
Raymond, i miss ur sexy voice!!!!
Sean Cai Xinyuan, get lost from my life!!!!
Alan Choo Wei Loong, tok to me la!!!! i not angry liao !!!!
Quincy Tan Eng Hwee, waiting to see u one day, to tell u something...
Louis, u been such an ass!!! stop being such a bypasser!!!!
Ervin Teo Zhong Wei!!! i wan an explanation for deleting me in ur frenster!!!!
Steve, nice guild member, u look hot, and sadly u are not gay T.T lolx~
Fabian, if u ever found my blog, tell me whether u still hate me or not...
Benji, to brisbane u go!!! bye bye!!!!! muahahah!!! XD
Vincent, dun sad le, ur bf is only going to enlistment, not immigrant or wad !!!
Wong Chan Mun, tks for being such a good fren to me.. being there to keep in touch wif me =)
wow, wad a list of guys i haf my comments for.. tats all for todae... ciao~
wif tears behind my smile =)
4:03 AM
Went out wif kn to shop at far east.. den we went to watch movie at picture house... we wanted to watch Cars at first.. but den they are left will first row seats!!! so like.. forget it? lol.. so we ended up watching a movie at a later time slot.. risking the last train... we watched She's the man!!
Its a show starring Amanda bynes as viola who pretended to be her bro to enter tis school to play soccer.. and was roommates wif tis hot hunk!! >.< and she or he tends to act abit ger at time freaking the hunk out... lol.. u get the picture.. it is a show worth watching man!!! out of 5 i give it 4.5~ since it is the funnest show i watched so far for tis few months.. go watch it to laugh ur ass off... lolX!!!!
anyway.. after the movie.. as expected.. we missed the last train.. sat down at ps mac until totally blacked out.. we tot its 24 hrs lo.. so lame >.< we went to youth park to eat, and saw tis two hot hunks checking me out... i was like wtf? den there is tis broken wrist guy at has seven ear holes at each ear... like omg lo.. anyway.. walk quite a distance b4 we decided to take a cab back.. asked the uncle can pay 18 bucks to take us to yishun and sembawang..
jux bathed.. toking on the fone wif raymond.. tis guy tat i know 2 yrs ago.. and onli tok to him once 2 yrs ago.. lolx... like finally.. i get to tok to him on the fone after 2 god damn bloody yrs. haha... doubt i will be sleepin anyway.. since i got to wake up at 9 am in the morning.. den again i finished toking to him at 6.26am.. we chatted for 1hr 40 mins 34secs.. so we like started chatting at 4.46am >.<
its been so long since I tok to someone wif a sexy voice like his !!!! >.< omg.. it juz make mi high~~ ^^ anyway, i enjoyed toking to him.. even though I was murmuring all the way coz I was so tired… but at least tis chat was worthwhile.. we bullshitted a lot but it was fun!!! Hahahah…
really really wanna tok to him on the fone again… I am so looking forward to hear my big boi boi’s sexy voice soon!!! =)
poor me..
T.T
Anyway.. blogger was down.. so I onli get to post my entry now… anyway.. juz woke up.. suppose to cut hair in the morning.. but I didn’t.. coz lazy!!!! And tired.. and its raining >.<
3:45 PM
Anyone interested in knowing such a cheap whore? u are now welcome to... =)
Go see his blog and get to know him better... see how cheap is he..
Rate him urself !!! Since he wans to be the next xiaxue..
Why not let everyone know of his blog? and wad a person he is?
www.ienut.blogspot.com
tat is the cheapest link u can find...
click on it..
i know u wan to...
4:13 AM
wad am i? baby? its juz a name... haha... how cheap can someone get? tell me.. tsk.. sean cai xinyuan, u make me realise so much... and to tink tat someone can b TIS cheap? oh~.. i really got nothing to sae... People around me.. should know.. all tat i haf been thru for him and stuff... issit realli wasted? i tink so too.. since wad he do is juz straying~ and sleeping around wif guys~ why am i so unfortunate to haf fallen for someone like him?! lol...>.<>.<
searching for my strength.. the true strength to give up... to let go... i wan to be away... coz i am tired... sick.. disappointed... i long realise tat i am juz being silly.. but dunno why, my heart juz deceive me once again.. to blive tat things may turn out well..
my heart.. i will nv to trust u again... i shall abandon my feelings and emotions.. coz they seem unreal to me... hoping tat i will wake up once again, to something tat is real to me...
4:02 AM
been rotting at home for this 3 days... sianx.. totally sick... body ache like fuck lo... my shoulder hor.. so bloody fucking pain until i cant sleep.. i looking more and more like a panda now... T.T O.O~ nono!!!!! cough* todae morning i woke up, realising i am having nose bleed, and i couldnt recognise myself, coz why? my face was covered wif blood!! so are my hands!!!! i'm not exaggerating... its true.. realli!!! T.T sigh.. i tink i gonna die.. wad if its nose cancer.. nnh... time for me to go le.. goodbye cruel world!!!! XD anyway.. i went out ytd onli to haf dinner wif mich... and nothing fun happen in my life tis few days.. especially wif all of u gone... sigh~ where are my alvin, samson, joseph!!! =X anyway.. ya.. gtg.. chionging maple! muz lvl 70 by 19th of june!! dun care >.< and i am currently lvl 60!!! muahahaha XD
8:51 PM
After spending the nite at MOS, i didnt really sleep at all.. coz i was being a fool again.. waiting for him to call me out.. but den he went out wif kimo instead... only to tell me tat after he reached home.. really dunno wad to say...
i spent my wednesday in my room, waiting and waiting.. so i wasted my day off like tat.. on thursday, didnt go sch again.. coz i did not get enuff sleep, too tired to even go sch.. tat is one of the reason only.. partly bcoz of all the problems tat arised tis few days.. plus, i'm falling ill.. do anyone really care?? u are juz adding to the problem, and not helping at all..
todae, i finally gone to sch.. coz i asked everyone to give me morning call, to motivate me to go sch.. slept for 2 hrs.. zzz... anyway.. the day gonna end liao.. so yup.. trying to stay happy.. but i juz cant.. my babies all angry and sad... how can i still be happy?!
3:02 PM