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NaMe: Ryan Q.S.K
iGn: RyanQuek
NiCkS: LuCiRe, Kai, QuEk n eTc..
aGE: 17
D.O.B: 12 DeCeMbEr 1988
CouNtrY: SinGaPore
HoBbiEs: FliRtin aNd BiO TaPor(nO Sg No LifE)
E~Mail:ryan1988@hotmail.com
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PLAY MAPLE WIF ME OK?
G4 + Lifang at our seats.
omg. i act cute.. lol
level 2 MOS
7:44 AM
our individual pic our ying shop.
the G4~ ^^
veri tall hor! lol.. not la sitting on the counter if u see clearly..
stupid, waving from afar... wif ying
outside kn stall... look weird.. zzz
7:33 AM
muahahah.. now den i just reached home and bathed.. about to go to sleep le... so just a short one k? hehe... didnt go sch ytd, coz need alot of sleep.. coz at nite going to mos wif xue,ying, bei they all... so i rotted at home.. until evening, met up wif michelle for dinner at amk.. loiter about for awhile den head to orchard to find them at their working place... now ying is working at the shop opposite of xue!! lol.. if wan find them more convenient also... anyway... went there... dance around... like tat lo.. until 5 am.. came back to yishun for breakfast.. den went home le..
7:25 AM
i am starting to lock myself in... keeping things to myself... i dun wish to open up anymore... coz i dun wan to get disappointed again... anyway.. i didnt want to come sch todae de, coz i slept for like half an hour last nite!!! or i should sae in the morning.. but den.. i haf to pass fone and charger to him, so i got to go meet him.. and ya.. like tat might as well go sch rite... den after sch meeting didi... i wan to bring alvin go de but den he onli free after 630.. tat guy also finish at 630 but den he like dying to see my didi.. so he sae he will go find us after he finish his thing.. i cant stop him rite.. so ya.. let him see my di, since i allow it...
1:55 PM
will i really hold on? will tis love last? is this feeling even true? is there any more purpose in tis? i choose to not tink of it anymore.. losing everything.... if it could be simple and clean... i crazy over tat song... u all wun know la.. tsk.. anyway.. i wanna post lots of fotos from now on!!!!
11:50 AM
tis is one of the most sweet and loving pic we took at mos yesterday.
2:26 PM
muahahah... after sch yesterday.. meet up wif ying for movie at causeway.. b4 watching.. we went to eat.. and finally i get to eat a proper mac meal!!!! and i ate beef fan-fastic! hehe... not realli nice.. but den again.. i finally get to eat a better burger.. and no more $2 burgers... ying onli ate mcflurry..
went into threatre... we took couple seats!!! lol.. know why... when at counter purchasing tickets, when choosing the seats, the staff recommended the couple seats at the back! lol!! we were shocked yet we decided to take tat offer!! haha..
overall the show was sad... but den again... it make not much sense with almost everyone dying... tsk! hahaha... anyway... after movie, went to mos to eat.. coz ying is hungry.. we took photos until the mos is able to close den we go off... when at home, was worried about baby, coz florence called me and sae he isnt home yet.. den i call his fone also no one pick up! argh... he dun know how dead worried i was.. until he msg sae he at fren house overnight.. so tired... slept until now den wake up... nnh... morning so angry.. baby like not happy wif me lo.. haiz... so tired to even quarrel pls... anyway.. going to meet bb to pei him go home later...
2:12 PM
see wad i draw for my baby!!! deeply in love wif u...
taken on 13th of may, 1.51pm.. in his house... i love my baby..
1:57 PM
i dunno wad to do sia... i feel tat my life totally messed up... sigh.. if onli i could get wad i wan... and wad i wan, is true love from my baby... ni shi wo de wei yi... anyway... nothing to blog.. going out wif ying they all todae. finally got time for myself... but i will still miss my baby de... sianx... baby today whole day nv tok to me de!!! know why? he block me in msn!!! argh... idiotic !!! anyway hor... we are trying our best to be together... i hope we realli can last... as i realli wanna b wif him so badly...
11:08 AM
slept from 9am till 5pm on wed.. den after tat, went to causeway collect fone... it is finally working accordingly again.. baby went to find me wif his friends after tat.. went home den bought food for bb.. den went home, he bathed, eat den fell aslp liao.. so i sit by his side.. watches him falling deeply in slp.. dunno why.. but i feel a sense of miscomfort and loneliness.. once guo xiang came back.. i leave the house le..
i cried thru out the bus ride.. juz feeling so lost... like as if i am wif him yet i dun belong to him... i juz feel tis pain... i realli love him.. but i juz feel tat, he doesnt love me as much... dunno why i feel tis way lo... sigh... anyway... cried all the way home... cry myself to sleep.. woke up today and cry again.. until b4 meeting him at mrt station, i go wash up... baby buy me sausage mcmuffin for me.. also i ask de.. if not i end up paying again.. lol!!
now in class.. baby angry wif me coz my msn nick put "without u in my world, images of u fading as time goes by" den he put "i hate it tis way because i am definitely pissed off" den i change mine to "there is no one moment when i stop loving u... so believe it.. believe my love"
anyway.. he is totally angry.. dunno why.. i tot suppose to feel sad instead.. weird guy.. anyway... i am going to explain for him later... hope he would be more understanding...
love CXY..
11:48 AM
Todae, after school went to watch DVC with baby and 6 of his other frenz... correction, wif 5 ppl, but was 6 when having dinner even though i didnt eat. After the show, liyi lost her wallet~!!! sob! sad for her lo.. but den for now there is nothing else we can do since we go around and ask at places we visited. hope that it is a nice person who picked up her wallet.. lol..
I reached home wif baby at 10 plus.. den he grumbled tat he was hungry again! after eating dinner at 6pm. so we stopped at the stop after his house to get his usual... beef fantastic!!!!!! =.=" unhealthy la baby!!!! anyway after eating i realised that my family is searching for me. they could not contact me coz i went to repair baby's fone b4 the movie when they were eating. so i did not have any fone.
after that i heard tat my ah ma is in ICU ward... so i rushed down after seeing ying msn me, and called my sis. I saw my ah ma lying down there, so weak.. heard coz of irregular heart beat and also the weak heart, plus lung problem which all give her breathing problem.. stand beside her for awhile den the rest of my relatives ask me go back since i got sch the next day. plus, my bag and stuff is at my baby's hse, so i ended up being sent back to baby's home by my relative, whereas my parents stayed over at the hospital.
i miss my ah ma... i hope she get well soon... and i mean real soon...
back at bb's hse.. he was playing maple waiting for me when he is suppose to sleep!!! argh! not enuff slp still like tat, dun complain tired again!!! den the kor came over and was using the desktop. den hor, not more than 5 mins, bb said he was HUNGRY again!!!!!!! wth is wrong wif his hunger?! i heard tat not enuff sleep would lead to big appetite!!! sigh.. luckily, no more beef fantastic !! so he finally got to eat mcnuggets instead!! muahaha.. but still it is not healthy!!!!
baby, i rather to get back ur sleep rather than eating.. not tat i am complaining, but it tat my pocket is burning a hole liao... imagine la, everytime he wants to eat, i pay, den worse, he only eats practically mac onli!!! sigh... baby, b understanding, and try to save money for me, by avoiding eating so much MAC!!! lol... anyway, now alreadi time to wake bb up, he got sch, i dun.. but den i didnt sleep, to make sure i can wake him up. but den it seems like he is not waking up at all!!! argh.. doubt he is going school again.. wah piang, i stayed up to make sure.. den he not going, i am going to faint le lo.. i am damn bloody tired now... i cant fall down any moment even as i walk... wth lo!!! argh!!!!!!! YYAAAAWWWWWWNNNNNN~~~ now the florence also ask me to wake her up later.. wah lao, i like living alarm clock now... sianx...
now i know how an alarm clock feels... when people are happily aslp, they stay awake to keep track of time, and doing this alone when there are no one there to play or talk to. Den when it is to wake up its master, the master would juz stop the ring and either go back to sleep neglecting the clock or they might snooze it and the alarm clock has no rest, keep haf to ring . if the master ever wakes up, it would juz stop the clock and go off to do things. leaving the clock life only revolve around loneliness in day and nite plus ringing when needed. worse scenario are the master angry wif them waking and abuse the clock, like how baby juz pushed me away juz now.. T.T ALARM clocks, i now understand u well.. i wil not do those things to u since i know how it would feel. huGx...
anyway, i standing and typing hor, i am still falling asleep.. sianx.. so i think i should stop here and go wash up if not i will go to slp liao.. bth la!!!! TMD.. if i really dun love baby hor, i tink he would haf die in my clenched fist... muahahha so tired... juz hope he knows wad i am going thru to satisfy him, and hope he appreciate it.. if all these hard work are gone meaningless, i tink i would give up wif pride! lol.. yawn yawn yawn... so tired baby!!! i dun care.. kiss me tonite, den maple train me... den ok.. i wanna fall asleep le la... TMD TMD TMD!!! argh.. baby, i dun care.. u either wake up or skip lesson.
5:28 AM
on sunday.. went out with ying at nite.. to play lan and eat lo.. as usual.. juz feel like meeting her, so juz went to meet her lo... den baby wan me hurry home.. so i hurried back.. played maple with baby and chatted on the fone wif him until 5.30am!!! which means not slpin for the whole day at all!!! den go school like this on monday!!! so tired until i do everything also can fall aslp.
see la.. i willing to sacrifice my sleep, my time for baby.. haha.. so after school, went to baby's house coz they had family dinner. then it was late so i wanna go home, baby unhappy coz he tot i was going to stay over.. but my ez link card no money.. tat's y.. i need to go home to show my face to collect my topped up ez link. anyway.. baby promised to do a blogskin for me!!! so happy and so sweet of him to do it...
love u now and ever..
meeting baby and rest to watch movie todae after sch...
but i first haf to go thru this stupid module todae!!!! argh!!! the lesson dun suck, is the facilitator tat do!!!! fuck him pls... i was at other teams' table, den he shouted at me to ask me go back to seat as the meeting is going on... den i sae, "k la, juz shut up k.. " he replied "if u not happy wif the class, u can walk out now" i said again "wadever k.. i juz cant b bothered wif u" den he diam diam.. stupid blanga!!! hate him... go construction work la... u dun deserve to b here!!!!
ei phatee imay gliefe, sbuot ei aljovae eyoiu, tsueozan
1:35 PM
on friday, guess wad? i didnt go school again as usual... i ended up going to baby's house in the morning... the most sad thing is tat, when i reached hor.. everyone slpin.. den hor, my fone no outgoing call!!! and somemore i dunno the place well.. it took me quite some time to find a public fone... den after i found the public fone, i realise i haf no coin!!! and at tat time, there were nobody at all... den i waited until a lady came down.. asked her for change, den luckily she has it.. now is the worse part... i called baby, and he didnt pick up!!! i called like half an hour lo... sianx... den i no choice go call his fren... if i didnt call the fren hor, i wouldnt think i would be at his hse even now... den when i went in, i check his bloody fone, and show him tat there were 29 missed calls!!!! argh~
was wif baby until evening... i went to meet my beloved didi... b4 tat, something pissed me off.. i will not give any details... baby should know la hor... anyway.. i went town wif didi.. den walk around, eat and bullshit lo~ i tell him things tat were troubling me.. sigh.. tks.. my didi so poor thing, like being embarassed by me, know why? hahaha.. i hook his hand and walk... actualli doing it was juz to make fun of him onli la.. anyway, saw bei at ps!! lol.. guess wad? she tot my didi, is the baby i mentioned.. lol!!!!
i'm so darn broke!! sob.. T.T.. b4 leaving, i even went to carrefour, to buy my bb's tidbits... see la... u are in my mind everi moment...
Went back to bb's hse.. den hor.. played maple as usual.. there were things tat i was unhappy wif la... but i choose not to sae too much.. we played until like 4 am.. den i bth liao... he knows i cannot take it liao, so ask me slp first, but den i sae i wanted to wait for him to slp together.. den hor i waited... he came lying on the bed, and asked me to help him with his maple.. den i helped liao rite.. he is alreadi aslp... den i feel so... not wanted anymore.. somemore, he slpt wif his head facing the wall... den use the whole blanket to himself.. did he even tink abt, whether i would b cold or not.. and stuff like tat? sigh.. den i suddenly feel so awake, so ended up not slpin well again... he no longer hug me to slp... kiss me b4 slp... hmm.. anyway.. i am blogging when he is still slpin..
k den.. lets see how it goes...
10:01 AM
baby, if u ever reading this.. i wan u to know that regardless of what, i still love you k.... but i just want u to know something... i tried to not tink about tat incident but the thing is, everytime he juz pop out of nowhere... den the thought will come again... not tat i dun blive u or wad.. it is juz the feeling... it feels so awful... it juz really hurt me, baby... do u realli know tat? i realli dunno wad to do, but i dun wan u to hide things from me bcoz of tis to prevent me from getting hurt.. i rather u juz tell me... but i juz wan u to know, tat wif his existence, my love and trust will waver... i am trying so hard to hold onto the faith i haf for u, baby... i will love u tis sec, next hour, tonite, tmr, the day after next, next week, next month, next year.. on and on... nv will it stop, so baby... give me the assurance to continue, to love u everyday, every moment... to be with u always... nv to leave u...
2:04 PM
today, went for dental to do filling.. it was alrite la.. done in mins lo... haha.. den.. todae, dunno why... juz so bored until i cried at constant time interval sia~~ sigh.. anyway... i realli dunno wad to sae to u, baby... i sort of predicted it, tat things would happen de.. but den, there is really nothing i can do... its really ur whole responsibility.. its either ur will is not strong enuff, and is easily manipulated, if not it would b ur love for me is not strong enuff... if u realli love me, u would know what u do is right or wrong.. and u will nv wan to do anything to hurt the one love..
i dun tink i am really ur baby, since wad u done wif me, is also the same as wif him... wad he is, is wad i am... i really dunno wad to do at tis kind of situation.. and i dun really have anything i can do about it. tink abt it la... u lied to me at the first time toking to me, den after tat, u start breaking promises... i am doing my very best to give u my trust... but wif tat person there in ur life... my trust for u is being affected... plus u will make mi withdraw the feeling bit by bit.... u dun wanna to share me wif others, but do u know tat i am sharing u wif other ppl?! is u who give me the will to quit smoking, stop vulgarities, stop shaking legs and etc.. but do i not give u the will to stop giving in the other ppl, and to juz love me and only me?! all tis juz comes down to how much love u haf for me....
in any case... i juz wish tat u learn to handle ur problems well, and to make ur decision...
signing off..
1:44 PM
okie.. i shld blog liao.. owned by my baby, sean since 11th of may... i went to bb's house on thursday after school, until 4am the next morning and went off, the cab fare was about $20 bucks.. sianx.. on wednesday, i watched poseidon wif him and liyi after sch. den after tat send him home. Even though i reached home at 5 am on fri, i went out at 12pm to bb's house to buy bb breakfast.. den i stayed overnight tat day until next day, went down to buy food for baby.. baby seems to like beef fantastic alot!!! hehe... den after tat, i rotted until 9pm on saturday, den went home.. as for sunday, i stayed at home, to play maple wif baby.. finally got him to lvl 20.. so happi.. i wan my baby to b veri veri strong... stronger than me... hehe.. love u baby.. i wan couple ring, B!!!!!!
2:21 PM
Just had my left two teeth taken out on wednesday again!!!! T.T tis time it was less painful but den after the operation, the bleeding did not stop as soon as the previous one. And this time they use a different thread, to stitch the wound. it is soluble one, so i would not need to take it off like the one on the right. But the thread like coming out.. veri uncomfortable lo.. argh~ anyway... i think got to go for next three wednesdays for scaling, filling and cleaning. haiz... my free time all taken by sgh!!!! i spent my free days with the dentist... haiz... wtf sia~
2:16 PM